Simple Moments, Lasting Memories

Greetings and Salutations!!

One of my friends came to me today and told me I needed to post more. I couldn't help but laugh because it made me happy to know that people were reading this. So this particular post is dedicated to you, dear friend, who wants to read more of my crazy thoughts on things. You know who you are ;)

I am in a pretty good mood today, and I found a gif to kind of show how i feel and yes it's another Supernatural gif, but it captures me perfectly!

Yes I am doing a happy dance today for a number of reasons. One of them being I had a great time with my family today. It was just a good time of fellowship and laughs and it was very much needed. The other reason is because I took a picture today and sent it to one of my favorite authors. It was something so simple but I found it funny and sent it to her and she retweeted it. -insert fangirly squeal here- (It probably looks something like this, but with jumping and squealing)

After she retweeted it, it went viral!!! Something me, little Nicol, who lives in some obscure and unknown place posted went completely viral in the fandom. Yes it's something silly to be excited over but I was excited that it went that far. Now fans are plotting crimes to steal the sign in the picture but it was just amazing to me that something I took brought that all together. That got me thinking, well that and other things in my life.

It sounds silly but all I really want right now is to feel important to someone, to matter I guess would be a way to explain it. I know I matter to friends and my family but I just want to feel important. Like when a friends sends you a text with an inside joke or someone famous retweets your tweet. I want to feel that way and I haven't felt that way in a long time. My personality is to do that for other people, by picking out something I know you like, even if it's small, or sending a text or picture of something I know you will find amusing. I go out of my way to let people know I am thinking about them, and that they are important enough that I remembered them when I saw something. I want that too. So when it happened on Twitter with one of my favorite authors, it just made my entire week. It's simple and seems silly to some but to me it meant quite a lot.

Today is a day I will always remember, do you have moments like that? Those are moments to treasure and think back on, especially when you are feeling low. God totally gives us moments like these to look back on when we are feeling down, I believe that wholeheartedly. Now for some it may not be what I experienced but we are all unique people, with different likes. Today God totally blessed me and put the biggest smile on my face, today he found an awesome way to make me feel special and important. That is how awesome God is, he knows just how to make your day or your week in my case. So if you are feeling blue, think back on a good memory, something that just totally made your day. If that doesn't work, come find me, I am sure I can put a smile on your face.

SORRY! I totally had to put that up there because as I was writing that line that scene totally came to mind. Yes I am a die hard batman fan, I just can't help it. But if you liked the movie, I am sure you probably just smiled.

To summarize, God is good, my life is awesome and though I may feel low tomorrow, I have good memories to look back on. I am one blessed girl and I am just happy I can share it with you my lovely readers!!

9-11-2001 We Will Never Forget

I will always remember Sept 11, 2001. I was sitting in gym class stretching with friends, when the Principal announced over the PA system that a plane crashed in New York. At the time, being young and stupid, I thought "Plane crashed in New York, that's sad but what does it have to do with me?" I know it's rather selfish to say but I was young at the time. So when gym class was over, I walked into my next class and on the TV was the smoking Twin Towers. It was then I realized that something so much more than a plane crash had taken place. I watched the footage while other students around me cried and somehow even in that moment I knew things would never be the same. 

Here we are 12 years later and that memory is still as fresh as when it happened. A terrible act was committed that day, one that words can't really begin to describe. What's more is that brave men and women gave up their lives to protect the rest of us. So today I want to honor them for their sacrifice, without them things could have been so much worse. My prayers are with the families of those lost to this tragedy, praying strength and grace over them as they remembered their loved ones today. Even though the people who lost their lives can't see this I still think it needs to be said. Thank You! I also want to thank all the soldiers who have gone to war since, thank them for fighting and giving up their lives so that I can live and be free. Without the soldiers we truly would be lost.

Today is a day not to be taken lightly. Take a few minutes to remember that day clearly in your mind. Remember your feelings, and then say a prayer for all those that fought to save your life, the soldiers and even those on the planes themselves. I am not saying you can't laugh and have a good day, I am going to celebrate life today but I am also going to take a few moments to remember, remember what was done to protect the lives of the people of this country and the sacrifices that have been made since.

Have a Blessed Day! 

A lesson in patience

Greeting Readers!

I hope that all is well in your lives. I know my blog has been lacking excitement lately but I have been working, and going to class and studying, so I am sorry for the lack of posts. However inspiration has struck and I have somethings I want to say.

You know the saying "Good things come to those who wait"? I kind of hate that saying and this is why. Patience has never really be my strong suite. I tend to get super excited about things to come, or the plans I have for myself and don't want to wait. I want to get to it and start right then and there but that's not reality. If that was the case we would all be achieving everything lightning fast and it would kind of lose it's value.

The reason I bring this all up is because of some of the things I want to do. it's no secret that I want to be an author. I love books and I have some good ideas jumbling around in my head. Ok I think they are good ideas, but if everyone else thinks they are good has yet to be seen. Anywho, in my mind I see the writing process being super easy and just bam write a story and send it to a publisher. After reading authors' blogs and such I find that is not the case. It's so much more in depth and there is so much more to it. It kind of shows how naive I am but I am new to the whole market. Not only is the whole process in depth but it takes time. It takes patience. I have a small idea for a story, and I just want the whole thing to be handed to me on a platter. I want God to say "Here Nicol, here is the story, now write like the wind." Yes God would so say something like that to me. That's not reality. I have a lot going on and even some authors have waited years before their books were even ready to be brought before a publishing company. It's all part of a process.

In my life right now, I have a lot of things going on. Work, School, Family Commitments, Church Commitments, and that doesn't leave much time for writing.Not too mention that I am not that patient. In fact I need a heavy dose of patience.  I so desperately want to get my story out there and watch it go places but it has to be all in good time. I have to wait and let the inspiration and timing fall into place. I am a firm believer in everything happening when God meant for it to happen. Maybe now the seed of the story has been sown and as time passes it will begin to grow and when I have the time, then it will just spring right out of me. I am not going to give up on my dreams, I just have to learn to be patient and wait on God. I need to learn to enjoy life and not get so gung ho about things. Being excited is one thing, wanting to jump in, with no experience or idea what I am doing isn't so smart.

Are there things in your life you are excited about? Are you wanting to just jump right in like me? If you feel any opposition at all, or a warning in the pit of your stomach, chances are it's not that time. Good things do come to those who wait, and patience is a good virtue. Such cliche sayings but they are the truest words that have been spoken on the manner. Don't push your dream away, just relax, keep it on the back burner. When the time is right, for whatever you are dealing with, you will know. It will just click into place, everything will line up just right. I know it will for me and I know it will for you too. I even have a bible verse to back me up. 

Isaiah 40:31:Yet those who wait for the LORD Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary.

James 5:7-8: Be patient, therefore, brethren, until the coming of the Lord. Behold, the farmer waits for the precious produce of the soil, being patient about it, until it gets the early and late rains. You too be patient; strengthen your hearts, for the coming of the Lord is at hand.

These are two of my favorite verses. The second one especially. Yes it says the coming of the Lord but in this instance it's the coming of the things the Lord has for you in your life. For me it's the story I want to write, the one bubbling inside of me. Just like I said before, the seed has been planted, now like a patient farmer I just have to be patient and wait. I can't make it grow or pull it too early, it won't be right. If I wait on the Lord, then I know it will come in due season at the right time. So be encouraged by these verses, God has good things in store for each of us. We just have to rest in him and let them happen when they happen. 
You should know that as I was writing this, I was getting something from it too. That verse in James really encouraged me, which always makes me smile. I love it when i get revelation from things as I am writing. I know that patience isn't easy and that tomorrow I will battle with it again but my dreams are worth it. Besides I always have these awesome verses to really bolster that determination in me. 


Be blessed dear readers! And remember to hang onto those dreams, and enjoy life!

Checking In & a Quick Thought

Dearest readers!!!

Enjoy this Supernatural gif that I snagged from tumblr. I do like this show and this gif pretty much sums up how I feel. I am giving each of you my readers a hug, I've missed you all so much.

I know it feels like a dog's age since I have posted but life has been rather busy. I had no idea that taking 5 classes would be so busy. I've done it before but having them all shoved into one day makes it a bit much to deal with. It's really messed with my gym schedule, which makes me sad, because I love to work out and miss the gym. I just get so tired and worn out, getting myself to go is hard. I do manage some smaller workouts but still. Not too mention I feel like I have worked a lot this past week. New People to train and things to do but such is life.

I've been going through some things lately. I am sure I will post about them soon but I am just waiting on the proper inspiration. believe it or not my posts are inspired which is probably why they are so wordy. Regardless when the inspiration strikes I promise you will have an epic post. For right now I am just trying to wade through life and the trials I am enduring. I have to keep my eye on the prize though because it gets hard to continue to walk through the fire. It's hard and it would be so easy to give up, but I want to be that refined and pure gold, so I continue on, with the strength of God keeping me going.

I do miss you all and I am glad that you have stuck with me. I am almost to 200 views which is rather exciting. I will admit I have shared this blog with people and they shared it with friends, which makes me want to squeal like a girl. I am honored that you have taken the time to read my thoughts on things, and am sorry that this post isn't exciting, I've just got a lot going on. So thank you for reading new readers, and please continue to check back in. I do have more to say, I guarantee you that.

Be Blessed!!

Feeling Low?

Hello faithful readers!

If I haven't thanked you yet, here it is. Thank You for faithfully reading my blog. When I started this blog I was a bit scared, scared that it would just be me writing my thoughts down and that's it. In my mind that's what a journal is for, and I do journal quite often. I just knew I had thoughts to share with the world and what better way than the internet. So that's what I did and I have been blessed by seeing all the views and the few who have commented. I know that I am reaching people, somehow, someway, even if I know you already. So thanks for reading, and I hope you are blessed just as much as I have been, which is a lot.

In life we all go through various trials. They aren't the same for everyone because everyone is unique and has their own battles they have to face. One of mine, at least lately, is feeling insignificant or invisible. I feel like I am not seen and that people just don't care. It's hard to admit because I try to look on the bright side of life but things just haven't been working out that way lately. When it comes to things of this nature, I usually see the glass half empty and I am not a fan. I will tweet someone or text someone or even IM someone and they might never respond and that says to me "i don't want to talk to you", "i am just gonna ignore you in hopes you go away" or something along that train of thought. I know it sounds crazy but it really does bother me. If you are busy let me know and I will be alright but flat out ignoring me in any social media isn't helping matters. Now sometimes people don't always see it or they may not get the message, that I can understand but i usually assume the worse.

Now all of this brings to mind a quote I heard:

"No one can make you inferior without your consent" - Eleanor Roosevelt

I thought about that for a minute. Yeah it's a nice feel good quote that is suppose to empower you and make you feel better but it never usually did with me. I was thinking about it in the midst of my "poor nicol" party and realized something. I was giving people the power to make me feel that way. I was letting their actions or lack their of give them power over me. I was getting angry at them for something I did. It was like a total epiphany moment. lol. I also realized something important too. I matter to God, he sees me, he loves me and he cares what I have to say. That also helped alleviate some of my pain.  When I say I gave people power to make me feel inferior or invisible, I mean this. When I tweeted that person and they didn't respond, I got upset and figured well I obviously mean nothing to them, so whatever. I got upset and i just assumed they didn't care or even want to talk to me. I gave them the power to make me feel low and not worth their time. In reality, they just missed my tweet and when they did get it, it was too late for them to respond to whatever my question was. My perception of the whole situation was way off.

I struggle with this a lot. I always feel like the one screaming at the top of her lungs in a room full of people and no one notices. But that's all my perception. I am sure there are quite a few people who would notice. I do matter, I am visible and what I say does matter to people. Now convincing myself of that is another challenge but I want you dear reader to know you matter. People don't always show it because we are who we are. I admit I am selfish, and so are other people. Sometimes we don't realize how we effect others with the way we deal with things. My first instinct is to pull away and it caused some major rifts between me and people, which is part of why i feel unimportant and like I don't matter. But I do. Only I have the power to mend those bridges, to fix the rifts I've caused. it's not gonna be easy and honestly my pride got in my way. But I am laying that aside to fix those things in my life that need fixed.

I will feel low at times, it sucks but it happens. But I am slowly healing, I am learning how to think properly. I am letting my mind be renewed and thinking the way God intended me to think. He wants me, you, everyone to know we are special in his eyes that we aren't inferior, we matter and he sees us. I need to start seeing that. However I will go through periods were it's just easier to give into the negative then stay positive, but I just have to collect myself and keep moving forward.

So don't feel low reader. You matter! I see you...well metaphorically!! And I hope this made sense because my thoughts are kind of jumbled today!! But yes, we matter, and we have no reason to feel low! There are good things all around us, we just have to want to see them!

Just a Short Post

Greetings Readers!

I know it's been a few days but Fridays and Saturdays are usually my busy days because I usually work 8 to 9 hour shifts, so I come home exhausted. But I wanted to let you know I am still in the land of the living. I kicked my own butt at the gym this week and it's definitely taken it's toll. I am an avid gym rat, I love working out and I like being sore, sick I know. But I am gonna rest up this weekend and be ready to go by Monday, for my first ever Movie Monday Post!! My mom and I have a tradition of seeing movies every other monday and being the movie person that I am, I love to recommend and share my thoughts on movies, so check back Monday evening for my Movie Review and Recommendation.

Today's short thought: Don't be afraid to be who you are. You were uniquely made and the world isn't nearly as bright without you being true to yourself. God made each of us in a specific way, and we need to engage in that. I know that I haven't always been true to myself, wanting others to like me or just fit in but I realized one day that I don't need people's approval. God made me the way he did, he made me the person I am., and I want to be that person. Sure I'm a little goofy and don't tend to think like much of society but that's just me. So be you today! Rock your awesome self!

Blessings,
Nicol