I know that my posting has been very sporadic but that's what happens when you take five classes in one day and work as much as I do. Not too mention my social life has picked up a bit, which is a good thing. It hasn't left much time for posting in my blog but that got me thinking.
Does it really matter if I post or not?
I know who one or two of my readers are, but that's about it. I so badly want to make a difference and make my voice heard but my confidence is severely shaken. I have all these things I want to do and no time to do it. It's rather annoying. I know i am just at a low moment. We have up swings and down settings in life and I have reached a down setting.
I will get passed this and will be confident and sure again, I just can't help but share it with you my readers. Even if there are only two of you. It's alright to be down, it happens and is apart of life but we can't let it keep us down. I tend to be the person who will dwell in my pity party till someone slaps me and says "Hey get it together. You can do this." hahaha I know that seems extreme but that's something I need.
I need that with this blog. I haven't been inspired to write lately and for that I apologize. I only tend to post when I feel a topic weighing on my heart and lately my time has been so consumed by life and other stuff I haven't had time to think about it. Either that or what is on my heart is just so negative it doesn't need to be shared. When I started this blog, i had such expectations about it. I would have all these readers and do book reviews and movie reviews and all of this awesome stuff and none of it has seemed to taken off. It makes me kind of sad but maybe it's my fault. I picked a bad time to start one.
All in all readers, I am kind of in a slump. I will pull through but I ask that you don't give up on me and this blog. I know it will be great someday, but for right now it's just what it is. I don't know how to describe it. If you are the praying type, say a few for me.
Thanks for sticking with me this far!
Blessings,
Nicol
Monday, October 28, 2013
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Excitment
Sorry Ladies and Gents! I have a lot going on right now. It seems like if I don't have tests to do, I have papers and if it's not papers it's some other assignment. I thought my last semester would be easy. Boy was I wrong!! Oh well, I will get through it and it will be good!!
Now you all know I love books. I love to read and hope to write a novel someday. Twitter is helping me connect with some authors and other readers and it's so much fun and really awesome. Well I have teamed up with a group called Feed My Reads. They are a group on twitter that post things for readers, for authors and everyone in between. They keep readers up to date on upcoming books and events and help authors connect with their readers. It's a really awesome group.
Anyways, they have decided to branch out to the USA. I now run the Feed My Reads Chapter in Ohio! So I will be working with people to announce upcoming book events and promoting authors in Ohio and the like. It's a great networking idea and it will be good to get the word out for other readers.
if you'd like to see what I am talking about, some links for you:
Feed My Reads
Feed My Reads USA
Feed My Reads Ohio
Go check them out if you are a reader or an author, or aspiring author. If you aren't feel free to ignore this post.
I do have some more exciting news coming up, God is blessing me yet again. You will have to wait to find out. So keep checking back!!
Blessings!!!
Now you all know I love books. I love to read and hope to write a novel someday. Twitter is helping me connect with some authors and other readers and it's so much fun and really awesome. Well I have teamed up with a group called Feed My Reads. They are a group on twitter that post things for readers, for authors and everyone in between. They keep readers up to date on upcoming books and events and help authors connect with their readers. It's a really awesome group.
Anyways, they have decided to branch out to the USA. I now run the Feed My Reads Chapter in Ohio! So I will be working with people to announce upcoming book events and promoting authors in Ohio and the like. It's a great networking idea and it will be good to get the word out for other readers.
if you'd like to see what I am talking about, some links for you:
Feed My Reads
Feed My Reads USA
Feed My Reads Ohio
Go check them out if you are a reader or an author, or aspiring author. If you aren't feel free to ignore this post.
I do have some more exciting news coming up, God is blessing me yet again. You will have to wait to find out. So keep checking back!!
Blessings!!!
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Honesty
Happy October!!!!
I absolutely love Fall. The leaves turn beautiful shades of orange, red and yellow. Pumpkin flavored everything comes out, and do not forget apple flavored things. It's a season of boots, I love my boots, and have a nice collection. And the weather is not too hot not too cold, so it's really just perfect. I love me some fall. If you don't get into Fall, hang out with someone who does, I am sure they can turn you onto the beauty and splendor that it is. If you don't ever get into fall, I will label you the Fall Grinch and shun you. hahahah just kidding.
So Ladies and Gents, I have been ruminating on some things, (YES BIG WORD), it's just my fancy way of saying reflecting or thinking. Back to the point, I have been thinking about Honesty. Everyone says that hokey line "Honesty is the best policy" and don't get me wrong it's somewhat true. What they don't tell you is that Honesty is rather scary and really hard. At least it is that way for me.
I hate confrontation, I hate getting in fights and I suck at being honest. It's not in my personality to fight with people and most of the time when I am mad at them, they are completely clueless. Want to know why? Ding Ding Ding, I have a hard time being honest. I am so afraid to tell someone what I think or feel because I don't want to fight or if I am honest, lose that I just clam right up. I know there are people even today who still have no idea why I am distant with them. In the past they have done something to upset me or hurt me and me being a coward was too afraid to tell them that. Even now I have a few people who have done this or that and I am too much of a chicken to just tell them how I feel. It's not like how I feel is wrong, I have talked to others who give me advice tell me I am not in the wrong, I just don't want to start a fight.
Today I took a step and told a friend what I felt about something. Now in my head I saw her freaking out and telling me all these horrible things and it ending in a fight where we don't speak. Did it happen that way? Wanna guess? It didn't. It went well because I sat down and made my feelings known, I expressed how I felt in a calm manner and it got resolved. We talked it out and now things are fine. We acted like mature adults and got through the problem and moved on. Now will every situation be this easy? Absolutely not. None of us were made the same way, we all have different thoughts and feelings and it may not always work out so well. I just got really lucky.
Was I scared to death the entire time? Yes. But it felt empowering. I tend to be a dweller. I may not voice how i feel, I instead keep it held in and it festers and festers until I kind of explode. Let me just tell you this now, it's not good and it never ends well. I will vent to a few people here and there but I mainly keep it to myself. This is not healthy in any way, in fact it does nothing but hurt me and not anyone else. It also makes me more bitter and again doesn't affect the other person at all. Nine times out of ten the other person had no idea there was even a problem an if they did they never said anything to me about it. So again it doesn't really harm anyone but myself.
Being honest with my friend as refreshing and hard but it made me realize that Honesty really isn't all that scary. I just have to ask the Lord for wisdom and timing. Those are the two key compents to Honesty. You have to have the right words at the right time or otherwise things may blow up in your face. So wait on the Lord and let him direct your words like he did with me!
Now if you have no problem being honest and telling it like it is, then you may need to pull back some, or put a filter on yourself. Blunt honesty is rather hurtful, I have been on the tail end of that so I know. Again it's about pausing for wisdom and knowing who you are talking to.
Be encouraged, and Be Bold when you need to be. Some day I will be able to be honest without fear. It's not going to change over night but my experience with my friend is a small stepping stone of success!
I absolutely love Fall. The leaves turn beautiful shades of orange, red and yellow. Pumpkin flavored everything comes out, and do not forget apple flavored things. It's a season of boots, I love my boots, and have a nice collection. And the weather is not too hot not too cold, so it's really just perfect. I love me some fall. If you don't get into Fall, hang out with someone who does, I am sure they can turn you onto the beauty and splendor that it is. If you don't ever get into fall, I will label you the Fall Grinch and shun you. hahahah just kidding.
So Ladies and Gents, I have been ruminating on some things, (YES BIG WORD), it's just my fancy way of saying reflecting or thinking. Back to the point, I have been thinking about Honesty. Everyone says that hokey line "Honesty is the best policy" and don't get me wrong it's somewhat true. What they don't tell you is that Honesty is rather scary and really hard. At least it is that way for me.
I hate confrontation, I hate getting in fights and I suck at being honest. It's not in my personality to fight with people and most of the time when I am mad at them, they are completely clueless. Want to know why? Ding Ding Ding, I have a hard time being honest. I am so afraid to tell someone what I think or feel because I don't want to fight or if I am honest, lose that I just clam right up. I know there are people even today who still have no idea why I am distant with them. In the past they have done something to upset me or hurt me and me being a coward was too afraid to tell them that. Even now I have a few people who have done this or that and I am too much of a chicken to just tell them how I feel. It's not like how I feel is wrong, I have talked to others who give me advice tell me I am not in the wrong, I just don't want to start a fight.
Today I took a step and told a friend what I felt about something. Now in my head I saw her freaking out and telling me all these horrible things and it ending in a fight where we don't speak. Did it happen that way? Wanna guess? It didn't. It went well because I sat down and made my feelings known, I expressed how I felt in a calm manner and it got resolved. We talked it out and now things are fine. We acted like mature adults and got through the problem and moved on. Now will every situation be this easy? Absolutely not. None of us were made the same way, we all have different thoughts and feelings and it may not always work out so well. I just got really lucky.
Was I scared to death the entire time? Yes. But it felt empowering. I tend to be a dweller. I may not voice how i feel, I instead keep it held in and it festers and festers until I kind of explode. Let me just tell you this now, it's not good and it never ends well. I will vent to a few people here and there but I mainly keep it to myself. This is not healthy in any way, in fact it does nothing but hurt me and not anyone else. It also makes me more bitter and again doesn't affect the other person at all. Nine times out of ten the other person had no idea there was even a problem an if they did they never said anything to me about it. So again it doesn't really harm anyone but myself.
Being honest with my friend as refreshing and hard but it made me realize that Honesty really isn't all that scary. I just have to ask the Lord for wisdom and timing. Those are the two key compents to Honesty. You have to have the right words at the right time or otherwise things may blow up in your face. So wait on the Lord and let him direct your words like he did with me!
Now if you have no problem being honest and telling it like it is, then you may need to pull back some, or put a filter on yourself. Blunt honesty is rather hurtful, I have been on the tail end of that so I know. Again it's about pausing for wisdom and knowing who you are talking to.
Be encouraged, and Be Bold when you need to be. Some day I will be able to be honest without fear. It's not going to change over night but my experience with my friend is a small stepping stone of success!
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