I survived my first week of classes. Woooo!!! 5 classes in one day, with no breaks is a task but I like just getting them all done. I run on Tuesdays and Thursdays from 9:15 to 4:30 but I don't mind it. Two of my classes I love, because the professor rocks. She's passionate about her subject, which is Greece and Ancient Greeks and she knows her stuff. If I ever become a professor, I want to be like her. Everyone loves her and you can tell that she gets through to students. All in all my semester will be intense but I can do it, because God is with me.
Now to the point of this post. I am not going to lie, my attitude sucks at my job. Little things grate on me and it only developed over time. Like the way customers will talk to me, like I am stupid or beneath them, when they try to break $100 bills for $5 worth of stuff then get all over me because I can't do it. There are other little things but I am just naming a few. Needless to say that working at a gas station has been a real test of my patience, once that I have been failing epically. My temper for some reason is easily tripped and I get all defensive and angry. I even get that way with certain co-workers. Now don't get me wrong I do enjoy working with many of the people I am working with but some just get under my skin. I am not kind about it either, i am purposefully short and sometimes rude. My personality is non-confrontational, so I only go so far, because I don't want to start a fight or hurt anyone. I just get so frustrated, I have a hard time keeping my temper and attitude in check.
Now one of my co-workers, bless her heart, is a God-loving woman like myself but she's what I hope to be. She doesn't let anything bother her. She's got so much love and grace in her heart that people could be flat out rude and she just smiles it off and doesn't let it get to her. She has a true appreciation for people and knows how God and Jesus would act around these people. She challenged me one day, telling me things I already knew but need to know and I got mad. I thought she didn't understand me, how I thought. If she was at the job as long as I have, maybe she'd understand. My mom kind of has a temper and such, and I would blame it on that, genetics of all things. Deep down though, I knew she was right. And I think what bothered me most was tht I let myself get to this point, to the point where I am not patient with anyone and only kind to a few. Instead of being kind to those who are mean to me, because maybe that's all they need.
I need a change of heart. I need to adjust my thinking, and open myself up to God so he can change me. Being rude and angry toward those that irk me isn't the way. Like I said in my positive reinforcement post, maybe they need a kind word, maybe they had a bad day. I don't know and it's not necessarily my place to know. All I need to do is worry about my heart and my attitude. I need to focus on doing what I know to be right and not let myself get bogged down by other people's opinions and how everyone else responds. I know it won't happen over night but I want it to change. I don't want this dark and ugly cloud over my head all the time. I want to enjoy every aspect of life and all it has to offer. Besides it takes more muscles to frown than to smile and I don't want frown lines. hahaha. A superficial reason but the main reason is I want to be the way Jesus would be. You may not believe it but Jesus would just smile and take the rudeness, he would let it roll off his back and be kind to them anyway. I want to be like him, I want to be like my co-worker and I can be, I just have to be willing to change.
This trial won't be easy and I know it will take time, but once I get through it, I will be that much stronger. I will be that much more pure and closer to be the most valuable goal. But most of all I will be a much better person in this world, a world that needs good people, at least more of them. SO I encourage you, if you know ways you need to change, you can! there is hope!! That's the best part! You can change if you want, you don't have to stay that way, that's what excites me the most. I am going to change and I can't wait to embrace it!
Be Blessed Dearest Readers!
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Monday, August 26, 2013
And so it begins...
Greetings readers!
Tomorrow is the first day of my last semester as an undergrad. I know that's kind of backwards but it is what it is. I am excited because I have kind of missed school, yes I am that nerdy. However, I am not looking forward to all the work that is about to overwhelm me. At least the subject matter of my classes is interesting and maybe in this semester I will find what I want to Master in. I have so many likes, dreams and such that I am not entirely sure what I want. God is faithful, so I know he will show me at some point.
I am anxious to get this semester over with, which is sad considering it hasn't even officially started for me yet. But I am anxious because this is the end of a chapter for me. I feel like my life will really begin once I graduate. I have been a student since kindergarten, so to be a college graduate (again) and not immediately go back is going to be weird. I will look for a job in my field and then my life will start a new chapter. Honestly I am looking forward to this next chapter, I am kind of over the last one. Now I can honestly say I have never felt that way about an actual book, just the novel that is my life. I am working on gaining more patience, but it takes time.
As far as posting goes, it will be rather slow after about two weeks. Classes tend to pick up then but I will always be thinking about my faithful readers. I am so thankful for you all. I went from like 136 views to 157 overnight it seemed and that makes me feel pretty darn special. I am glad to know that people are reading, and that I am getting what's on my heart out. It's a real blessing. So thanks for reading.
What did make me laugh recently, was finding an old journal entry. It was form some old notebook I found when I was cleaning the other day. What is truly awesome about it, is me writing to God expressing my desire to write something epic, something that touches lives. I want to be the next J.K Rowling, Stephanie Meyer, Cassandra Clare, Jennifer Armentrout and so on. That's always been my heart desire and seeing that old entry makes it even more so. God puts dreams and hopes into each and everyone of us and it's cool to see how some of them never change. What has God put on your heart? What have you longed to do? Look back and see if those dreams you thought were crap are still alive in your heart. You never know how they will work out. Keep the faith!
Tomorrow is the first day of my last semester as an undergrad. I know that's kind of backwards but it is what it is. I am excited because I have kind of missed school, yes I am that nerdy. However, I am not looking forward to all the work that is about to overwhelm me. At least the subject matter of my classes is interesting and maybe in this semester I will find what I want to Master in. I have so many likes, dreams and such that I am not entirely sure what I want. God is faithful, so I know he will show me at some point.
I am anxious to get this semester over with, which is sad considering it hasn't even officially started for me yet. But I am anxious because this is the end of a chapter for me. I feel like my life will really begin once I graduate. I have been a student since kindergarten, so to be a college graduate (again) and not immediately go back is going to be weird. I will look for a job in my field and then my life will start a new chapter. Honestly I am looking forward to this next chapter, I am kind of over the last one. Now I can honestly say I have never felt that way about an actual book, just the novel that is my life. I am working on gaining more patience, but it takes time.
As far as posting goes, it will be rather slow after about two weeks. Classes tend to pick up then but I will always be thinking about my faithful readers. I am so thankful for you all. I went from like 136 views to 157 overnight it seemed and that makes me feel pretty darn special. I am glad to know that people are reading, and that I am getting what's on my heart out. It's a real blessing. So thanks for reading.
What did make me laugh recently, was finding an old journal entry. It was form some old notebook I found when I was cleaning the other day. What is truly awesome about it, is me writing to God expressing my desire to write something epic, something that touches lives. I want to be the next J.K Rowling, Stephanie Meyer, Cassandra Clare, Jennifer Armentrout and so on. That's always been my heart desire and seeing that old entry makes it even more so. God puts dreams and hopes into each and everyone of us and it's cool to see how some of them never change. What has God put on your heart? What have you longed to do? Look back and see if those dreams you thought were crap are still alive in your heart. You never know how they will work out. Keep the faith!
Saturday, August 24, 2013
Feeling Low?
Hello faithful readers!
If I haven't thanked you yet, here it is. Thank You for faithfully reading my blog. When I started this blog I was a bit scared, scared that it would just be me writing my thoughts down and that's it. In my mind that's what a journal is for, and I do journal quite often. I just knew I had thoughts to share with the world and what better way than the internet. So that's what I did and I have been blessed by seeing all the views and the few who have commented. I know that I am reaching people, somehow, someway, even if I know you already. So thanks for reading, and I hope you are blessed just as much as I have been, which is a lot.
In life we all go through various trials. They aren't the same for everyone because everyone is unique and has their own battles they have to face. One of mine, at least lately, is feeling insignificant or invisible. I feel like I am not seen and that people just don't care. It's hard to admit because I try to look on the bright side of life but things just haven't been working out that way lately. When it comes to things of this nature, I usually see the glass half empty and I am not a fan. I will tweet someone or text someone or even IM someone and they might never respond and that says to me "i don't want to talk to you", "i am just gonna ignore you in hopes you go away" or something along that train of thought. I know it sounds crazy but it really does bother me. If you are busy let me know and I will be alright but flat out ignoring me in any social media isn't helping matters. Now sometimes people don't always see it or they may not get the message, that I can understand but i usually assume the worse.
Now all of this brings to mind a quote I heard:
I struggle with this a lot. I always feel like the one screaming at the top of her lungs in a room full of people and no one notices. But that's all my perception. I am sure there are quite a few people who would notice. I do matter, I am visible and what I say does matter to people. Now convincing myself of that is another challenge but I want you dear reader to know you matter. People don't always show it because we are who we are. I admit I am selfish, and so are other people. Sometimes we don't realize how we effect others with the way we deal with things. My first instinct is to pull away and it caused some major rifts between me and people, which is part of why i feel unimportant and like I don't matter. But I do. Only I have the power to mend those bridges, to fix the rifts I've caused. it's not gonna be easy and honestly my pride got in my way. But I am laying that aside to fix those things in my life that need fixed.
I will feel low at times, it sucks but it happens. But I am slowly healing, I am learning how to think properly. I am letting my mind be renewed and thinking the way God intended me to think. He wants me, you, everyone to know we are special in his eyes that we aren't inferior, we matter and he sees us. I need to start seeing that. However I will go through periods were it's just easier to give into the negative then stay positive, but I just have to collect myself and keep moving forward.
So don't feel low reader. You matter! I see you...well metaphorically!! And I hope this made sense because my thoughts are kind of jumbled today!! But yes, we matter, and we have no reason to feel low! There are good things all around us, we just have to want to see them!
If I haven't thanked you yet, here it is. Thank You for faithfully reading my blog. When I started this blog I was a bit scared, scared that it would just be me writing my thoughts down and that's it. In my mind that's what a journal is for, and I do journal quite often. I just knew I had thoughts to share with the world and what better way than the internet. So that's what I did and I have been blessed by seeing all the views and the few who have commented. I know that I am reaching people, somehow, someway, even if I know you already. So thanks for reading, and I hope you are blessed just as much as I have been, which is a lot.
In life we all go through various trials. They aren't the same for everyone because everyone is unique and has their own battles they have to face. One of mine, at least lately, is feeling insignificant or invisible. I feel like I am not seen and that people just don't care. It's hard to admit because I try to look on the bright side of life but things just haven't been working out that way lately. When it comes to things of this nature, I usually see the glass half empty and I am not a fan. I will tweet someone or text someone or even IM someone and they might never respond and that says to me "i don't want to talk to you", "i am just gonna ignore you in hopes you go away" or something along that train of thought. I know it sounds crazy but it really does bother me. If you are busy let me know and I will be alright but flat out ignoring me in any social media isn't helping matters. Now sometimes people don't always see it or they may not get the message, that I can understand but i usually assume the worse.
Now all of this brings to mind a quote I heard:
"No one can make you inferior without your consent" - Eleanor RooseveltI thought about that for a minute. Yeah it's a nice feel good quote that is suppose to empower you and make you feel better but it never usually did with me. I was thinking about it in the midst of my "poor nicol" party and realized something. I was giving people the power to make me feel that way. I was letting their actions or lack their of give them power over me. I was getting angry at them for something I did. It was like a total epiphany moment. lol. I also realized something important too. I matter to God, he sees me, he loves me and he cares what I have to say. That also helped alleviate some of my pain. When I say I gave people power to make me feel inferior or invisible, I mean this. When I tweeted that person and they didn't respond, I got upset and figured well I obviously mean nothing to them, so whatever. I got upset and i just assumed they didn't care or even want to talk to me. I gave them the power to make me feel low and not worth their time. In reality, they just missed my tweet and when they did get it, it was too late for them to respond to whatever my question was. My perception of the whole situation was way off.
I struggle with this a lot. I always feel like the one screaming at the top of her lungs in a room full of people and no one notices. But that's all my perception. I am sure there are quite a few people who would notice. I do matter, I am visible and what I say does matter to people. Now convincing myself of that is another challenge but I want you dear reader to know you matter. People don't always show it because we are who we are. I admit I am selfish, and so are other people. Sometimes we don't realize how we effect others with the way we deal with things. My first instinct is to pull away and it caused some major rifts between me and people, which is part of why i feel unimportant and like I don't matter. But I do. Only I have the power to mend those bridges, to fix the rifts I've caused. it's not gonna be easy and honestly my pride got in my way. But I am laying that aside to fix those things in my life that need fixed.
I will feel low at times, it sucks but it happens. But I am slowly healing, I am learning how to think properly. I am letting my mind be renewed and thinking the way God intended me to think. He wants me, you, everyone to know we are special in his eyes that we aren't inferior, we matter and he sees us. I need to start seeing that. However I will go through periods were it's just easier to give into the negative then stay positive, but I just have to collect myself and keep moving forward.
So don't feel low reader. You matter! I see you...well metaphorically!! And I hope this made sense because my thoughts are kind of jumbled today!! But yes, we matter, and we have no reason to feel low! There are good things all around us, we just have to want to see them!
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Of Movies and Dreams
It's a wonderful night for me, my dear readers!
I just got back from seeing Mortal Instruments: City of Bones. I loved it! I won't review it fully just yet, that's what Mondays are for. But I really do recommend seeing it. However, I am worried for the film. It opened today and when I went to the movie theater, I expected to see a huge crowd but there wasn't. I think there was a grand total of 12 people in the theater when Myself and My Mom were there. Now granted it was a wednesday night, middle of the week, people had work the next day but still. I am really worried for everyone on the film and Cassandra Clare. I too am an aspiring writer and would love to see what I write hit the screen and I am just concerned. The reviews aren't good so far and it's just got me all nerves. I know it's silly but I know how I would be if I were in that position. However the movie was worth seeing, even if you haven't read the book before.
Watching this movie however stirred a desire in me that I've had for a long time. I am aspiring writer, I haven't written anything exciting but I came to a conclusion today. I am going to write short stories when I get the ideas. It's a start and someday they may turn into something so much more. I have a dream to one day write a book and touch the lives of others. My dream goes much farther than that because I want to see it on the big screen. I want my words to come to life. I know it seems far fetched but I just can't help it, it's in me. I've always been an avid reader and a movie person and it would just be neat to see those two things come together. I also want to teach history too. I am just a woman of many dreams. I know that God made me this way and blessed me with this imagination, and I am going to seek him to cultivate the ideas. I am just so inspired.
I said all of this to encourage you, to follow your dreams. And to go see the Mortal Instruments because I so badly want them to do well. But your dreams are not far fetched, nothing is out of reach or impossible. You've just got to believe and wait for proper timing. So be encouraged, and I hope you have a blessed day!!
I just got back from seeing Mortal Instruments: City of Bones. I loved it! I won't review it fully just yet, that's what Mondays are for. But I really do recommend seeing it. However, I am worried for the film. It opened today and when I went to the movie theater, I expected to see a huge crowd but there wasn't. I think there was a grand total of 12 people in the theater when Myself and My Mom were there. Now granted it was a wednesday night, middle of the week, people had work the next day but still. I am really worried for everyone on the film and Cassandra Clare. I too am an aspiring writer and would love to see what I write hit the screen and I am just concerned. The reviews aren't good so far and it's just got me all nerves. I know it's silly but I know how I would be if I were in that position. However the movie was worth seeing, even if you haven't read the book before.
Watching this movie however stirred a desire in me that I've had for a long time. I am aspiring writer, I haven't written anything exciting but I came to a conclusion today. I am going to write short stories when I get the ideas. It's a start and someday they may turn into something so much more. I have a dream to one day write a book and touch the lives of others. My dream goes much farther than that because I want to see it on the big screen. I want my words to come to life. I know it seems far fetched but I just can't help it, it's in me. I've always been an avid reader and a movie person and it would just be neat to see those two things come together. I also want to teach history too. I am just a woman of many dreams. I know that God made me this way and blessed me with this imagination, and I am going to seek him to cultivate the ideas. I am just so inspired.
I said all of this to encourage you, to follow your dreams. And to go see the Mortal Instruments because I so badly want them to do well. But your dreams are not far fetched, nothing is out of reach or impossible. You've just got to believe and wait for proper timing. So be encouraged, and I hope you have a blessed day!!
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Book Review Tuesday!
Greetings Readers!
I am super excited, I have 100 page views in just a week. I am so excited that I've had people reading my blog!! I cannot believe it's been a week since I have started this thing up and it's been a pretty awesome week. I am very glad with the way the blog has been going and I am hoping for many more weeks of deep thoughts, good reviews and other stuff like that.
Now onto this week's book review. Today's book, in honor of the movie coming out, is City of Bones By Cassandra Clare. Now this book too is part of a series and I would love to review them all but I am going to do this book separately. Only because the movie adaption is coming out tomorrow and I am super excited!!
Again my mother recommended this series to me. My mother knows me and my taste in books quite well and half of the books I've read I have found through my mother. This series is another gem that my awesome mother helped me fine. Now I have a thing for stories of fallen angels or Nephilim, I love the concept and the various explanations and uses for them in society that Author's take. Now I have read a lot of books about Nephilim but Cassandra Clare's take is absolutely wonderful, and I think it's one of my favorites. She creates a world within our own that really opens the eyes. In the story she explains the unexplainable and no one would realize the differences.
We meet Clarissa Fray, a young high school student who leads a pretty normal life. However one night when she and her friend are out a club, living their normal lives she sees something that completely rocks her world. What she witness will literally change the course of her life and unlock things inside of her that she had no idea was there. Everything that she thought she knew will be challenged and see will see the world in a different light. It's definitely a wild ride. It's a story of one girl's journey to discover who she is and the people who help her on that journey. It's also the story of a shadowhunter who closed himself off, and threw himself into his world. It's the story of a nerdy guy who suddenly becomes something more. Various characters are brought together and their stories intertwine and take you on the journey of a lifetime. Forget what you thought you know...because you could be very wrong.
The characters are really the best part because they aren't just your run of the mill characters. They have so much depth and their back stories and lives are so intricate. When you read it you may think you have a character pegged, but as you continue to delve into the story you realize just how wrong you were. There are twists and turns and exciting plot points and action scenes. There is seriously never a dull moment in this story. You are on the edge of your sheet wondering what's going to happen next. I am sure you all know by now that I don't like to give away spoilers, so if you haven't read the book, go read it. This story will definitely capture your imagination and suck you right in. Many times people read the synopsis and cast assumptions about characters, and plots but that is not the case with this book series.
The coolest part of all this is, I asked Cassandra Clare what her inspiration was and she totally responded and here is that she said:
If you have not read City of Bones, I highly recommend you read it before you go see the movie. There is only so much a movie can convey so make sure to read the book and then see the movie. I promise you this book series won't disappoint you.
I am super excited, I have 100 page views in just a week. I am so excited that I've had people reading my blog!! I cannot believe it's been a week since I have started this thing up and it's been a pretty awesome week. I am very glad with the way the blog has been going and I am hoping for many more weeks of deep thoughts, good reviews and other stuff like that.
Now onto this week's book review. Today's book, in honor of the movie coming out, is City of Bones By Cassandra Clare. Now this book too is part of a series and I would love to review them all but I am going to do this book separately. Only because the movie adaption is coming out tomorrow and I am super excited!!
We meet Clarissa Fray, a young high school student who leads a pretty normal life. However one night when she and her friend are out a club, living their normal lives she sees something that completely rocks her world. What she witness will literally change the course of her life and unlock things inside of her that she had no idea was there. Everything that she thought she knew will be challenged and see will see the world in a different light. It's definitely a wild ride. It's a story of one girl's journey to discover who she is and the people who help her on that journey. It's also the story of a shadowhunter who closed himself off, and threw himself into his world. It's the story of a nerdy guy who suddenly becomes something more. Various characters are brought together and their stories intertwine and take you on the journey of a lifetime. Forget what you thought you know...because you could be very wrong.
The characters are really the best part because they aren't just your run of the mill characters. They have so much depth and their back stories and lives are so intricate. When you read it you may think you have a character pegged, but as you continue to delve into the story you realize just how wrong you were. There are twists and turns and exciting plot points and action scenes. There is seriously never a dull moment in this story. You are on the edge of your sheet wondering what's going to happen next. I am sure you all know by now that I don't like to give away spoilers, so if you haven't read the book, go read it. This story will definitely capture your imagination and suck you right in. Many times people read the synopsis and cast assumptions about characters, and plots but that is not the case with this book series.
The coolest part of all this is, I asked Cassandra Clare what her inspiration was and she totally responded and here is that she said:
"The idea for the Mortal Instruments came to me one afternoon in the East Village. I was with a good friend of mine, who was taking me to see the tattoo shop where she used to work. She wanted to show me that her footprints were on the ceiling in black paint — in fact the footprints of everyone who’d worked there were on the ceiling, crisscrossing each other and making patterns. To me it looked like some fabulous supernatural battle had been fought there by beings who’d left their footprints behind. I started thinking about a magical battle in a New York tattoo shop and the idea of a secret society of demon-hunters whose magic was based on an elaborate system of tattooed runes just sprang into my mind. When I sat down to sketch out the book, I wanted to write something that would combine elements of traditional high fantasy — an epic battle between good and evil, terrible monsters, brave heroes, enchanted swords — and recast it through a modern, urban lens. So you have the Shadowhunters, who are these very classic warriors following their millennia-old traditions, but in these urban, modern spaces: skyscrapers, warehouses, abandoned hotels, rock concerts. In fairy tales, it was the dark and mysterious forest outside the town that held the magic and danger. I wanted to create a world where the city has become the forest — where these urban spaces hold their own enchantments, danger, mysteries and strange beauty. It’s just that only the Shadowhunters can see them as they really are."How cool is this? As an aspiring author myself I thought all of this was amazing. Of course she gets massive brownie points for responding to me. I feel so special when an Author takes the time to answer my question. Regardless how cool is that she blended a biblical concept with the new age. These bad ass warriors who look the same as you and me, these shadowhunters who fight to protect us and we don't even know it. I think it's an excellent concept and a really neat story and definitely worth a read. I know I didn't regret it and found myself immersed into a world much like my own.
If you have not read City of Bones, I highly recommend you read it before you go see the movie. There is only so much a movie can convey so make sure to read the book and then see the movie. I promise you this book series won't disappoint you.
Sunday, August 18, 2013
Missing Out
Salve Readers (That's Latin for Greetings, Hello, Salutations that kind of thing, I am being nerdy),
I hope everyone is having an awesome weekend. My weekend has been a wild ride that is for sure. Work always gets me all worked up but God is teaching me patience, so I will take the lesson. It's not an easy one to learn because I have a bit of a temper but it's one I need. So I endure this trail, because I will come out that much stronger.
Today was my church's anniversary picnic. 19 years! My church has been around for 19 wonderful years and I am happy to be with them for 12 of those years. I do love my church, it's a great group of people with the best Pastors at the helm. Pardon my squee moment, I just really do love my church and it's hard to contain at times. Anyways, every August we have a picnic to celebrate another year, and it's full of fun, tasty food and fellowship. Lately, I have been kind of a hermit, so I hated going. I have had the opinion as of late that I don't matter, I am insignificant to these people, and honestly, was so hurt by some I just closed myself off. It was easier than putting myself back out there and getting hurt all over again. I don't deal well with pain and I didn't want anymore. In my selfish mind, I had been hurt enough and if anyone was missing me, or wanted to talk to me, they could seek me out. That is seriously not the right train of thought.
I am not going to lie, I kind of have a woe is me attitude toward things. When I get hurt or offended I tend to retreat and close myself off. I don't want to put myself back out there because I don't want to get hurt. What person in their right mind wants to get hurt on purpose? I don't think anyone truly does. The worst part is I closed myself off because of hurts and the person who hurt me probably doesn't even know they did it. So I just cut them out of my life and they have no idea why, which is probably why they didn't ever seek me out. I took the totally wrong approach to the whole thing. I am sure you are wondering how I stumbled onto this, and I will explain.
At the picnic today, I had a good talk with friends I've known since i started at the church. Those girls and I have been through thick and thin together. However as of late I had cut myself off because I just didn't feel important to them, and various other reasons. I figured why bother? They don't want anything to do with me obviously? What kicked me out of this funk was hearing about their lives. Things that I had missed out on, opportunity for laughter and talks and just getting to know these two awesome women. Yes we have had our differences and we all have a lot of personality and different views but that's what makes our friendships so fun. We each bring something different to the table and it makes for a fun and exciting time. Like I said because of hurts and offenses I just shut them out and as I sat there and listened to them talk, I felt so sad. I also felt rather stupid because I let myself get to that point. Yes there will be hard times in friendships, if everything was easy it wouldn't be fun or anything special, but I believe every friendship is special in it's own way. The hits kept on coming when I was talking to my best guy friend, we've been friends for 12 long years and our friendship survived a lot, even long distance. This guy is a dear dear friend, and hard to take at times (he does know I love him anyway) but again I let myself close him out. I learned about his life and felt so embarrassed and like the world's worst friend for not keeping up. I was severely slacking as a friend. So it's no surprise that I felt like I had no friends lately....I was shutting them all out. ME, not them, ME.
For the longest time I was bemoaning my lack of friends and here the answer was staring me right in the face. I was the problem. We get hurt in life, whether it's intentional or not, it happens. When that happens we have two choices, we either face the hurt head on and deal with it, or we let it fester and make us bitter thus cutting people off and only hurting ourselves more. I am totally guilty of the second one. It was to the point where I would get upset when they didn't seek me out. I wanted people to make an effort to see me. In my mind i figured if I was important to them they would seek me out. Again this is the wrong way to think about things. If my friends didn't know that I was hurt by them and I suddenly cut them out, why would they come seek me out? They probably wouldn't thinking I want to be left alone or I may have hurt them in the process.
Dear readers, It's time for us, me included, to stop hiding from the world. I have friends who need me, and they may not know it but they do and I need them. I like to think of this imagery: Swords. If they don't get used they are useless, but in order to make them sharp and a worthy weapon of a knight they need to be sharpened. To be the best version of myself, God gave me friends to help sharpen me. Yes we may bicker and fit but we sharpen each other. We challenge each other and through those challenges we learn and we grow. Whether we want to admit it or not we need each other. I don't know about you but I am tired of being lonely, even though God is always with me, I also want to be the best possible version of myself. I want to be in the lives of those awesome friends of mine. I know you have friends that you think that way about. We all have hurts but the true challenge is forgiving and moving on. Don't let it hold you back. You have something to offer to any friendship you encounter, so go sharpen those other swords =) Yes that sounds cheesy and kind of weird but I am sure you get it.
God never intended for us to walk this earth alone. He made friendships to help us grow, and deal with the various trials of life. You were not meant to go through these trials by fire alone, and I for one don't want to. I know I have thrown a lot for you to think about. It was definitely a mind bender for me and I am honestly thankful for the revelation. Now my task is getting together with these friends and reforming those friendships. I need my friends. So think about a friendship that is lacking, and if you don't, then you are doing awesome. But if you do, reflect on it and see what you can do to open yourself up. You will get hurt again but you will overcome it, just like I will.
Blessings!!,
Nicol
I hope everyone is having an awesome weekend. My weekend has been a wild ride that is for sure. Work always gets me all worked up but God is teaching me patience, so I will take the lesson. It's not an easy one to learn because I have a bit of a temper but it's one I need. So I endure this trail, because I will come out that much stronger.
Today was my church's anniversary picnic. 19 years! My church has been around for 19 wonderful years and I am happy to be with them for 12 of those years. I do love my church, it's a great group of people with the best Pastors at the helm. Pardon my squee moment, I just really do love my church and it's hard to contain at times. Anyways, every August we have a picnic to celebrate another year, and it's full of fun, tasty food and fellowship. Lately, I have been kind of a hermit, so I hated going. I have had the opinion as of late that I don't matter, I am insignificant to these people, and honestly, was so hurt by some I just closed myself off. It was easier than putting myself back out there and getting hurt all over again. I don't deal well with pain and I didn't want anymore. In my selfish mind, I had been hurt enough and if anyone was missing me, or wanted to talk to me, they could seek me out. That is seriously not the right train of thought.
I am not going to lie, I kind of have a woe is me attitude toward things. When I get hurt or offended I tend to retreat and close myself off. I don't want to put myself back out there because I don't want to get hurt. What person in their right mind wants to get hurt on purpose? I don't think anyone truly does. The worst part is I closed myself off because of hurts and the person who hurt me probably doesn't even know they did it. So I just cut them out of my life and they have no idea why, which is probably why they didn't ever seek me out. I took the totally wrong approach to the whole thing. I am sure you are wondering how I stumbled onto this, and I will explain.
At the picnic today, I had a good talk with friends I've known since i started at the church. Those girls and I have been through thick and thin together. However as of late I had cut myself off because I just didn't feel important to them, and various other reasons. I figured why bother? They don't want anything to do with me obviously? What kicked me out of this funk was hearing about their lives. Things that I had missed out on, opportunity for laughter and talks and just getting to know these two awesome women. Yes we have had our differences and we all have a lot of personality and different views but that's what makes our friendships so fun. We each bring something different to the table and it makes for a fun and exciting time. Like I said because of hurts and offenses I just shut them out and as I sat there and listened to them talk, I felt so sad. I also felt rather stupid because I let myself get to that point. Yes there will be hard times in friendships, if everything was easy it wouldn't be fun or anything special, but I believe every friendship is special in it's own way. The hits kept on coming when I was talking to my best guy friend, we've been friends for 12 long years and our friendship survived a lot, even long distance. This guy is a dear dear friend, and hard to take at times (he does know I love him anyway) but again I let myself close him out. I learned about his life and felt so embarrassed and like the world's worst friend for not keeping up. I was severely slacking as a friend. So it's no surprise that I felt like I had no friends lately....I was shutting them all out. ME, not them, ME.
For the longest time I was bemoaning my lack of friends and here the answer was staring me right in the face. I was the problem. We get hurt in life, whether it's intentional or not, it happens. When that happens we have two choices, we either face the hurt head on and deal with it, or we let it fester and make us bitter thus cutting people off and only hurting ourselves more. I am totally guilty of the second one. It was to the point where I would get upset when they didn't seek me out. I wanted people to make an effort to see me. In my mind i figured if I was important to them they would seek me out. Again this is the wrong way to think about things. If my friends didn't know that I was hurt by them and I suddenly cut them out, why would they come seek me out? They probably wouldn't thinking I want to be left alone or I may have hurt them in the process.
Dear readers, It's time for us, me included, to stop hiding from the world. I have friends who need me, and they may not know it but they do and I need them. I like to think of this imagery: Swords. If they don't get used they are useless, but in order to make them sharp and a worthy weapon of a knight they need to be sharpened. To be the best version of myself, God gave me friends to help sharpen me. Yes we may bicker and fit but we sharpen each other. We challenge each other and through those challenges we learn and we grow. Whether we want to admit it or not we need each other. I don't know about you but I am tired of being lonely, even though God is always with me, I also want to be the best possible version of myself. I want to be in the lives of those awesome friends of mine. I know you have friends that you think that way about. We all have hurts but the true challenge is forgiving and moving on. Don't let it hold you back. You have something to offer to any friendship you encounter, so go sharpen those other swords =) Yes that sounds cheesy and kind of weird but I am sure you get it.
God never intended for us to walk this earth alone. He made friendships to help us grow, and deal with the various trials of life. You were not meant to go through these trials by fire alone, and I for one don't want to. I know I have thrown a lot for you to think about. It was definitely a mind bender for me and I am honestly thankful for the revelation. Now my task is getting together with these friends and reforming those friendships. I need my friends. So think about a friendship that is lacking, and if you don't, then you are doing awesome. But if you do, reflect on it and see what you can do to open yourself up. You will get hurt again but you will overcome it, just like I will.
Blessings!!,
Nicol
Saturday, August 17, 2013
Just a Short Post
Greetings Readers!
I know it's been a few days but Fridays and Saturdays are usually my busy days because I usually work 8 to 9 hour shifts, so I come home exhausted. But I wanted to let you know I am still in the land of the living. I kicked my own butt at the gym this week and it's definitely taken it's toll. I am an avid gym rat, I love working out and I like being sore, sick I know. But I am gonna rest up this weekend and be ready to go by Monday, for my first ever Movie Monday Post!! My mom and I have a tradition of seeing movies every other monday and being the movie person that I am, I love to recommend and share my thoughts on movies, so check back Monday evening for my Movie Review and Recommendation.
Today's short thought: Don't be afraid to be who you are. You were uniquely made and the world isn't nearly as bright without you being true to yourself. God made each of us in a specific way, and we need to engage in that. I know that I haven't always been true to myself, wanting others to like me or just fit in but I realized one day that I don't need people's approval. God made me the way he did, he made me the person I am., and I want to be that person. Sure I'm a little goofy and don't tend to think like much of society but that's just me. So be you today! Rock your awesome self!
Blessings,
Nicol
I know it's been a few days but Fridays and Saturdays are usually my busy days because I usually work 8 to 9 hour shifts, so I come home exhausted. But I wanted to let you know I am still in the land of the living. I kicked my own butt at the gym this week and it's definitely taken it's toll. I am an avid gym rat, I love working out and I like being sore, sick I know. But I am gonna rest up this weekend and be ready to go by Monday, for my first ever Movie Monday Post!! My mom and I have a tradition of seeing movies every other monday and being the movie person that I am, I love to recommend and share my thoughts on movies, so check back Monday evening for my Movie Review and Recommendation.
Today's short thought: Don't be afraid to be who you are. You were uniquely made and the world isn't nearly as bright without you being true to yourself. God made each of us in a specific way, and we need to engage in that. I know that I haven't always been true to myself, wanting others to like me or just fit in but I realized one day that I don't need people's approval. God made me the way he did, he made me the person I am., and I want to be that person. Sure I'm a little goofy and don't tend to think like much of society but that's just me. So be you today! Rock your awesome self!
Blessings,
Nicol
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
The Power of A Song
Hello Dearest and Faithful Readers!
How did everyone do in the Positive Re-enforcement Challenge?? I know I did alright, but I failed. I was more mindful of my thoughts because I didn't want to let any of you down but I did fail. Work definitely made it hard, especially when certain co-workers get under my skin. Guess what though! Failure is ok, what matters is that we are more mindful of what we are thinking and saying to others. We are mindful of our actions and words and that's a major step in the right direction! That is a success to me even if we didn't exactly succeed the entire day. Small Victories are the important victories! Besides each day is a new day and that means it's another chance to take another small victory so don't give up!
Today I want to discuss the power of a song. I have always been the person who wished my life as like a movie, like a movie in having a soundtrack. I will actually be in the midst of a moment and pick my own song for the moment and it never ceases to make me smile. There is one song that has connected with me, I like to think of it as my Anthem. It's Radioactive by Imagine Dragons, and because I am that awesome, I am posting the video so you can take a listen before you read the rest of my post =)
How did everyone do in the Positive Re-enforcement Challenge?? I know I did alright, but I failed. I was more mindful of my thoughts because I didn't want to let any of you down but I did fail. Work definitely made it hard, especially when certain co-workers get under my skin. Guess what though! Failure is ok, what matters is that we are more mindful of what we are thinking and saying to others. We are mindful of our actions and words and that's a major step in the right direction! That is a success to me even if we didn't exactly succeed the entire day. Small Victories are the important victories! Besides each day is a new day and that means it's another chance to take another small victory so don't give up!
Today I want to discuss the power of a song. I have always been the person who wished my life as like a movie, like a movie in having a soundtrack. I will actually be in the midst of a moment and pick my own song for the moment and it never ceases to make me smile. There is one song that has connected with me, I like to think of it as my Anthem. It's Radioactive by Imagine Dragons, and because I am that awesome, I am posting the video so you can take a listen before you read the rest of my post =)
When I first heard this song I was hooked, and the funny part is this song has yet to get old. Usually you hear a song and after about the millionth time you hear it, you are swear if you hear the song again you will break something. Not this song. Every time this song plays, I get a smile on my face. I love this song and when I say it's my Anthem, it really is my song.
To me this song is about Awakening. The way I see it, life is like a book. Each portion is a chapter, and they all come to an end. I am coming to the end of one chapter of my life and I am greeting it with anticipation. I am discovering more of who I am, and learning new things about life and myself. This song is how I feel about myself. That I am waking up, that deep in my bones I know who I am, and I am about to burst forth into the next chapter of life. The song is called Radioactive, but to me when something is radioactive, it's contagious, it gets on you and consumes you and then gets on everything you come in contact with. I am excited about life, and what is ahead. I am excited about what God has for me, and I want to be radioactive with that. I want it to affect those around me and I want to see them that excited about life and their dreams. Yes the song kind of has a post-apocalyptic vibe to it, but I love that kind of stuff. That fact aside this song is my jam, it's my anthem. I am radioactive, I can feel something deep inside my bones that is waiting to come out. It's my love of life, my love for God, my love for writing, my love for history, my love for my friends. All those things that make me well me. I am sure when Imagine Dragons wrote this they didn't know people would get such meaning out of it but I know I did.
Is there a song that speaks to you this way? A song that just seems to sum up who you are right in this moment? Would that song be the soundtrack to moments in your life? I read on tumblr that someone's favorite song can tell you more about them than they can. I hope that hearing this song, tells you that I am a young woman who is excited about life, a woman who wants to make a difference, a woman with high and lofty dreams, a woman who isn't perfect but human, a woman who just wants to be radioactive. If it doesn't then at least you got to listen to an awesome song!
Blessings!
-Nicol
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Book Review Tuesday!!!
In honor of my new blog, thanks to the inspiration of characters from Jennifer Armentrout's Lux series, and the fourth installment in said series coming out, I am going to review this series. Now I can't just review one of the books at a time because they are a package deal. Once you read one, you will have to get the next one and the one after that. I am against spoilers so you won't get any from me. I will tell you what I feel you need to know and let you discover the wonder of the series like I did. But first a short little story of how I stumbled across said series.
**Wayne's world flash back sequence Here**
My mom is an avid reader and I was finishing another book series when she suggest Obsidian by Jennifer Armentrout. She did warn me first though, there were aliens in the book. I am not a sci-fi person by any means so I was like, I will pass. Some time passed and I was desperate for something to read, I was bored and TV wasn't doing it for me. So i decided to bit the bullet and read the book and thus a friendship was formed.
Obsidian is the first in the Lux Series where we met Katy Swartz, your average teenager, who moved to a po-dunk town in West Virginia. This lucky lady happens to live next to the hottest fictional character ever Daemon Black, who is your not so average guy. He's hotter than hades and every time I think of him my face flushes but man oh man. In my mind, he's like my ideal guy, for real. If I could have a fictional character as a boyfriend, I would take Daemon Black all the way, and that's saying something because I have read a lot of books. I don't want to give too much of the plot away but let's just say these two and their chemistry is off the charts and will have you laughing, and getting all irritated and a bunch of other emotions. They had been cheering and yelling and all kinds of crazy things. They are just so epic. But what I really love about these characters is how down to earth they are. Hahaha Pun intended. Jennifer Armentrout writes in the way these characters think. The thoughts are real, and I found myself reading and thinking the exact same thing as Katy, which is probably why I am so attached to these books. I find Katy and I are very much alike and she was after all the reason I started this blog, well she was the inspiration anyway.
I know I am probably making no sense but I can't help it. These books are just so epic and awesome. I am doing a re-read of them and haven't really been able to put them down. I stay up till all hours of the morning reading and then wake up earlier than I want but it's soooooooo worth it. Now I know you read that these are about aliens, but before it turns you away, let me just say this. Take your notions about little green men and probing (lol) and toss them away. Daemon Black is not your average alien. So don't judge based on that fact alone. These aliens are unlike anything you've ever encountered before and you will find yourself wanting more and more of them. Trust me.
The other two in the series are Onyx and Opal with Origins coming out the 27th of August. There is also a prequel story, that I recommend you read called Shadows. It really helps pull all the pieces together. I read Obsidian, then Shadows and then the other two and it really cleared a lot up for me. I recommend reading it before Opal, but I won't tell you why. You will just have to read and find out.
In all seriousness guys, I truly recommend this series. It's got action, adventure, romance, and some of the greatest dialogue I've ever read. The plot is compelling and definitely keeps you on your toes and the writing is so down to earth and modern that it just pulls you right in. When i read these books, I am not in some crappy town, I am with Katy and Daemon, I am experiencing their lives and going through what they are going through. To me it's like a movie playing in my head and everything around me fades away. Ironically, OBsidian is being made into a movie. All the more reason to read these books, it means you will be apart of the fandom before the movie comes out. You will be able to school those newbies!!! Yes to me that means a lot, I always got into things too late but not this time.
So here is another challenge for you my dear readers. Go rent/buy/find a copy of Obsidian by Jennifer Armentrout and read it. I would so give copies out if I had any but alas they are on my kindle. Anyways, go out and read it, I double, no triple dog dare you to do it. I promise you won't be disappointed, my mother, yes I said that, my mother loved these books. They are for all ages and tastes and I know you will love them as much as I do. Besides don't you want to know more about the girl who inspired this blog? The girl who helped motivate me to write down my thoughts and feelings. Heck, she inspired me to start reviewing my favorite books. Jennifer Armentrout's hard work and awesome characters helped me a lot in this arena and I think she deserves your time and a chance to experience what I experienced.
Get up off the chair and head out and find a copy of Obsidian right now! Go read it! Once you finish Obsidian, read Onyx and then Opal and on August 27th we can celebrate the release of Origin together! Happy Reading!!
-Nicol
Positive Re-Enforcement
Good Morning All!!
Popping into for a quick deep thought before I head to work. I will post a short disclaimer. I am a christian. I go to an awesome church and many of you have noticed the verse upon which I named my blog. So yes God will be in my posts but I warn you now, I am not one of those christians. The ones who judge you and shove things down your throat. God is love and that's what I am trying to be, love. So no worries and continue reading because todays thought applies to life in general!
Recently my church went on a fast of sorts, for 40 days we were to not complain or be negative. I will be the first to admit i failed miserably at this. I am usually the glass half full kind of girl but it just seemed like the world knew what was going on and was throwing everything at me so I would fail. At least that's how it seemed. I did attempt the fast, because when I failed I got right back up and continued on. Yes I beat myself up a bit. I tend to have this conscience that just won't let things go like that. I want to do things right, I wanted to succeed but beating myself up wasn't the way to do it. Yes it was harder than anything I had done, especially in a world that's really negative. I am sure we can all admit that the world has become a place of negativity and complaints. I fit into that as well, I am far from perfect. In fact one of the reasons I am posting this now is because of my negative attitude and the constant complaints coming out of my mouth.
I don't want to be negative, I truly don't. I enjoy being happy. I like to laugh and I really do like to compliment people. I know that seems strange but I know that sometimes all someone needs is something positive said about them. Something as simple as "that shirt looks good on you" or "I really like the way you did your hair." The simplest things can make a person's day and that's what I want to do, I want to give someone a reason to smile. I believe that is what God wants all of us to do, whether we believe in him or not. He wants us to lift each other up, not bring each other down. Now when someone says something negative or mean to you, at least for me, it's seriously difficult to muster anything nice to say at all. My first reaction is to say the first awful thing that comes to mind but I don't. Mainly because it happens at work, and I don't want to get in trouble. For those of you who don't know, I work at a gas station, I deal with all kinds of people on a daily basis, the bad and the good. Though at times it seems more bad than good, so i am constantly having to restrain myself from being mean. I feel really bad for thinking it later but I just have an aggressive personality, and a bit of a temper and when it gets triggered, I can't help but stew. Yes I don't spew my thoughts, I stew, i dwell, i don't always say what I am thinking but sometimes thinking is bad enough.
However the other day my youth pastor said something to me that really got me thinking. When we fail, we tend to let the guilt overcome us, and we want to give up. We failed, so why even bother trying again. (This has happened to me but usually when it comes to dieting. lol. but that's a different post for a different day). She told me that for every complaint i make, I need to say something positive. SO instead of feeling guilty for messing up, I just turn it around and say something positive. SO if I complained 3 times about a particular customer. I need to think of 3 positive things about that customer or anything else. I absolutely love this idea and lately it's been helpful. Like I mentioned before my attitude has been terrible and I have complained a lot, but yesterday I put this little seed of advice into action and it did brighten my attitude. Now applying it where I work will be a different story but I am making it my goal to try.
I went through this whole thing to say this. We need to lift each other up. We need to show kindness to one another. We truly do. I have seen what positive re-enforcement can do to a person and there is no better feeling than knowing you made someone's day, that you helped them in some way. So I have a challenge for you my readers!! Don't we just love challenges??? Today I want you to go about your day, and when you catch yourself complaining about whatever, stop, pause and then try and think of something positive. I know I will be trying with any particular customer that comes through my line. Now here is the kicker, if you fail...that's totally ok. We are human and we will fail but that isn't a bad thing. It just means that you are one step closer to success. When you fail, it means you attempted to do something, which means you attempted to stop yourself from being negative! That's a wonderful thing!!! You took a small step toward a more positive outlook and that is something to be proud of!! So go out and try it, don't complain, don't see the glass half empty, be mindful of your thoughts and words. Go be positive and help someone's day. You reap what you sow, it's true. But don't be that positive re-enforcement for the benefits that you will get. Do it for the other person, because you never know what they are going through!
If you do take up my challenge, drop me a comment and let me know how you did. Remember failure isn't necessarily a bad thing. Good luck with the challenge, I know I will need it and be blessed! God will help you out ;) I know he will!
Monday, August 12, 2013
In the Beginning...
Greetings Readers!
I have for a long time been debating starting a blog. One of the main factors for not posting one was fear. I was worried about what people thought of what I wrote, or if I would offend anyone with my thoughts and feelings. And quite honestly I was afraid no one would care. I have trampled down that fear and decided to give this a go. I've got things on this heart of mine that I want to share with people.
Now I won't lie part of my motivation in creating a blog was thanks in part to a book series I am reading. The Lux Series by Jennifer Armentrout. Now some find it silly that a book can have that kind of impact but I don't think it does. One of the characters has a blog and I found myself envious. I spend massive amounts of time on the computer and internet, why not channel some of that into something productive and good.
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Now for a shameless plug: I highly and I mean highly recommend the Lux Series, the first book is called Obsidian and I promise you won't regret it. It will pull you into and you won't want to leave. Trust me. I wouldn't lead anyone astray. There are two others in the series with the fourth installment coming out August 27th. So finish reading this post and then head to Kindle Store, Barnes & Noble, or the local library and read it! I love supporting my favorite authors, so you may see some more shameless plugs from here on out. So this post's shameless plug goes out to Jennifer Armentrout. Also if you like the Lux series, I recommend the Covenant series. I am not gonna lie but that series seriously cultivated my love of Greek Mythology and culture and who doesn't love a good greek myth? So go ahead, I dare you to pick up these books. And if you don't like them, I will eat my words!
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Back to our regularly scheduled posting. This is my new blog. I plan on updating as often as I can. I just want to share what's on my heart with the world. I am going to shove my fear away and post what i feel like when it hits me. I hope that you enjoy what I write and that you get something from it and if you don't, you will probably get a good book recommendation. I read a lot and I can't help but share good books with people. I may end up like Jennifer Armentrout's character, whom I find very relatable.
So here it is, the beginning. In the beginning there was a young woman with things on her heart and no where to put them. Being inspired by an incredible book, and facing her fear she began her blog and let the words flow freely. You may be wondering why I chose the title i did and I will tell you why. One of my favorite verses in the bible: 1 Peter 1:7 - "That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ" We all go through trials in life and though in the midst of them we may feel like we are on fire or dying we aren't. We are being refined, we are being molded and shaped into the most pure and precious gold. Gold that is more valuable than anything else imaginable, and it makes us that just much stronger and all the more precious. I love this verse and it has always hit home with me. Much like anyone else I am going through various trials and one day I will be pure and refined and the finest gold ever. It sounds silly but it's what I believe and feel is true for everyone.
So dearest readers, I appreciate your time, and know this opening is kind of lame but hey it's a start! So thanks for reading and keep checking back. Comments are appreciated but if they are negative, just don't bother. I will not respond to them. These are my thoughts and feelings and I am not forcing them on you. Now that the warning is out there and done, happy reading and be blessed!
- Nicol
I have for a long time been debating starting a blog. One of the main factors for not posting one was fear. I was worried about what people thought of what I wrote, or if I would offend anyone with my thoughts and feelings. And quite honestly I was afraid no one would care. I have trampled down that fear and decided to give this a go. I've got things on this heart of mine that I want to share with people.
Now I won't lie part of my motivation in creating a blog was thanks in part to a book series I am reading. The Lux Series by Jennifer Armentrout. Now some find it silly that a book can have that kind of impact but I don't think it does. One of the characters has a blog and I found myself envious. I spend massive amounts of time on the computer and internet, why not channel some of that into something productive and good.
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Now for a shameless plug: I highly and I mean highly recommend the Lux Series, the first book is called Obsidian and I promise you won't regret it. It will pull you into and you won't want to leave. Trust me. I wouldn't lead anyone astray. There are two others in the series with the fourth installment coming out August 27th. So finish reading this post and then head to Kindle Store, Barnes & Noble, or the local library and read it! I love supporting my favorite authors, so you may see some more shameless plugs from here on out. So this post's shameless plug goes out to Jennifer Armentrout. Also if you like the Lux series, I recommend the Covenant series. I am not gonna lie but that series seriously cultivated my love of Greek Mythology and culture and who doesn't love a good greek myth? So go ahead, I dare you to pick up these books. And if you don't like them, I will eat my words!
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Back to our regularly scheduled posting. This is my new blog. I plan on updating as often as I can. I just want to share what's on my heart with the world. I am going to shove my fear away and post what i feel like when it hits me. I hope that you enjoy what I write and that you get something from it and if you don't, you will probably get a good book recommendation. I read a lot and I can't help but share good books with people. I may end up like Jennifer Armentrout's character, whom I find very relatable.
So here it is, the beginning. In the beginning there was a young woman with things on her heart and no where to put them. Being inspired by an incredible book, and facing her fear she began her blog and let the words flow freely. You may be wondering why I chose the title i did and I will tell you why. One of my favorite verses in the bible: 1 Peter 1:7 - "That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ" We all go through trials in life and though in the midst of them we may feel like we are on fire or dying we aren't. We are being refined, we are being molded and shaped into the most pure and precious gold. Gold that is more valuable than anything else imaginable, and it makes us that just much stronger and all the more precious. I love this verse and it has always hit home with me. Much like anyone else I am going through various trials and one day I will be pure and refined and the finest gold ever. It sounds silly but it's what I believe and feel is true for everyone.
So dearest readers, I appreciate your time, and know this opening is kind of lame but hey it's a start! So thanks for reading and keep checking back. Comments are appreciated but if they are negative, just don't bother. I will not respond to them. These are my thoughts and feelings and I am not forcing them on you. Now that the warning is out there and done, happy reading and be blessed!
- Nicol
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